PART 7 — ELEANOR WANTED TWENTY-SEVEN YEARS BACK IN TWENTY-SEVEN DAYS
My relationship with Eleanor nearly failed because she loved me too quickly.
Or perhaps because she tried to.
Three days after the DNA confirmation, she sent flowers to my apartment.
Not a bouquet.
Twenty-seven white roses.
One for each year.
I understood the idea.
I hated it.
A week later, she invited me to the Whitmore estate.
I declined.
Then she sent photographs.
Rose at five.
Rose at twelve.
Rose graduating college.
Rose pregnant.
I wanted them.
I also felt invaded.
When I did visit, Eleanor had prepared a bedroom.
For me.
Clothes were hanging in the closet.
My size.
New.
I stood in the doorway.
“What is this?”
Her smile disappeared.
“I thought when you stayed—”
“I’m not staying.”
“Of course. I only meant if—”
“Why are there clothes?”
“I wanted you to feel welcome.”
I turned toward her.
“You don’t know what I wear.”
Her face collapsed.
“I can return them.”
“That’s not the point.”
I walked downstairs.
Eleanor followed.
“Hannah.”
I turned.
“You cannot make up twenty-seven years by buying the missing pieces.”
She started crying.
“I know.”
“Do you?”
“I don’t know what else to do.”
There it was.
Grief trying to become action.
“Have coffee with me.”
“What?”
“Ask me what movies I like.”
She stared.
“Tell me an embarrassing story about Rose.”
Her eyes filled.
“Let me leave after two hours without acting like I abandoned you.”
That hurt her.
Good boundaries often do.
“I’m sorry.”
“I know.”
“I just…”
She touched her chest.
“I have spent twenty-seven years believing Rose’s entire line ended in one week.”
“I understand.”
“Then suddenly you were standing in front of me.”
“I understand that too.”
She looked at me.
“I want everything.”
“I know.”
“And I’m allowed to give you less.”
Silence.
Then Eleanor nodded.
“Yes.”
That was the beginning of our actual relationship.
Not the necklace.
Not DNA.
That conversation.
She started asking questions.
Coffee or tea?
Coffee.
Favorite food?
Anything with potatoes.
Music?
Embarrassingly bad 1990s pop.
She told me Rose hated mushrooms.
Loved old bookstores.
Could not parallel park.
Once dyed her hair purple before Jonathan’s company anniversary just to irritate him.
Those details gave me more than the estate ever could.
Eleanor also began listening when I talked about Linda.
At first, that was hard for her.
Whenever I said “Mom,” Eleanor’s face changed.
Finally she asked:
“Will you always call Linda Mom?”
I stared.
“Yes.”
Eleanor nodded.
Then cried later in another room.
She never asked again.
Months later, she met my parents.
Linda brought pie.
Eleanor hired a caterer.
That told you almost everything about them.
Dinner started painfully.
Then Linda mentioned I had once quit ballet because I refused to wear pink tights.
Eleanor laughed.
“Rose quit piano because the recital dress had sleeves she hated.”
The two women looked at each other.
Something softened.
They did not become friends.
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They became two women who loved different versions of the same child.
That was enough.
