Chapter 5 - The Safe Haven

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Suddenly, her phone vibrated violently against her hip in her coat pocket.
Once. Twice. Five consecutive times in rapid succession.
Natalie pulled back from Ethan's embrace and looked down at the glowing screen.
Messages from the party guests flooded the locked screen.
I’m so incredibly sorry.
Are you safe right now?
Please call me when you can.
Your mom had absolutely no right to do that.
Then, one specific message from Chloe popped up.
Please don’t do anything drastic until we talk privately.
Natalie stared at the message, a cold knot forming in her stomach.
Ethan read her changing expression perfectly. “Chloe?”
She nodded silently.
“What do you want to do?” he asked.
Natalie almost answered that she honestly didn’t know. But she did know, at least about one immediate thing.
“I want to go home.”
Their apartment was a fifteen-minute drive away, tucked safely on the third floor of an old, charming brick building with narrow staircases and drafty windows that rattled loudly in the autumn wind. It wasn’t fancy or luxurious. The kitchen cabinets always stuck tight in humid weather, the bathroom tile was significantly older than both of them, and the living room radiator hissed like a highly irritated cat.
But it was entirely theirs.
When they finally stepped inside, Natalie slipped off her uncomfortable heels and left them haphazardly by the door. Ethan securely locked the deadbolt behind them and went straight to the kitchen to make tea without even asking. She loved him immensely for that too—the profound way he intuitively understood that comfort was sometimes entirely practical.
Water. Warmth. A heavy blanket.
She changed quickly into soft sweatpants and stood silently in front of the harsh bathroom mirror.
The left side of her face was undeniably pink. Not deeply bruised, not hideously swollen, but marked clearly enough to make her stomach twist with nausea.
She touched the skin incredibly lightly.
Her reflection looked back at her, looking strangely calm for a woman whose life had just exploded.
For most of her adult life, Natalie had been highly praised by everyone for being incredibly reliable. Her teachers loved her. Her employers implicitly trusted her. Her friends always came to her for sound advice. She was the one who remembered obscure birthdays, answered frantic messages at 2 AM, brought homemade soup when someone was terribly sick, and stayed hours late when coworkers desperately needed help.
Dependable Natalie.
Easy, compliant Natalie.
Natalie who never ever made things harder for anyone else.
But hiding directly beneath all of that performative goodness was pure, unadulterated fear. Fear that if she actually needed too much, asked for too much, or refused too firmly, people would eventually just leave her.
Her father had been the absolute only person who never made his love feel like a stressful, pass-or-fail test.
She could still vividly picture him in the garage on lazy Sunday mornings, his sleeves rolled up, the old AM radio playing low while he meticulously fixed things that weren’t quite broken yet. He used to call her “Nat-bug,” a silly nickname she loudly pretended to hate after turning thirteen, but secretly treasured more than anything.
Three short weeks before he died in the accident, he took her to breakfast at a small, greasy diner off Route 9. It had rained heavily that morning, and she would always remember the distinct smell of wet pavement mixing with warm maple syrup.
“You don’t have to earn people's love by disappearing, Nat-bug,” he had told her over coffee.
May you like
At nineteen, she truly hadn’t understood why he had said it so seriously.
Now, staring in the mirror with a stinging cheek, she completely understood.